Dudes, I just cried in my Korean class. I didn't know one of the words and so I burst into tears. Trust me, it was not due to the fact that I couldn't remember the word for sunlight. I am just, well, beat down. My body has been a crazy mix of emotions for the last couple of weeks and it just came a pouring out.
Where no one speaks english.
To say they were confused would be an understatement. But, I just couldn't maintain anymore. I am quite frankly all over the fucking place. I go back and forth between heartbreakingly sad to over the moon happy and my body can't do it anymore. You see, I have fallen for a very wonderful man. And as such, that makes me happy. He's amazing. But? I spent the greater part of yesterday writing my speech for Adam's memorial. Happy. Then sad. Then back to happy. You get my point. Add in some work stress and upcoming travel stress and I am a walking raw nerve. I am anxious and jumpy and many charming things including panic-attacky.
I honestly don't know what to do but I do know this, I haven't laughed in about a week and that makes me incredibly sad. Instead I am just kind of floating, somewhere between happy and sad but right over crazy land and I don't like it. I'm hoping that after Adam's memorial in a couple of weeks things will settle down a bit. We'll see. If not there's always vodka right?
Time to go cry in the bathroom as today, I'm officially that girl.