Tuesday, July 15, 2008

No Fun

Right now I am no fun. I can fully admit this all loud and proud. I can however not make the funny come. Usually when I am sad it makes me funnier (please see original blog and the horrible break up resulting in the many bad, but very funny, dates). This time... I don't know. I just kind of feel drained. This may be due to all the tears but I think I am just in need of a bit of an escape. My dream right now is to take a month off, rent a cabin in the woods and just chill out. Cook, hang with the cats and just be. No schedules, no plans, no pressure. Unfortunately as I have bills and am an adult (who is forced to wear pants ALL THE TIME) this can't happen right now. I am trying to break on through to the other side and whatnot. Trying to get past the sadness but thus far my attempts have resulted in me being fine until I shoot wide awake at either 3 or 5AM and then it hits me. Hard. This results in coworkers saying 'wow, you look tired' and resulting in more sadness. Vicious cycles are super awesome. I just wanted to put that out there, get it off my chest if you will. Hopefully I'll be back in fighting form very, very soon. But man, these last oh 4 years? Have been rough. And it finally all just caught up with me.

6 comments:

Dimplz said...

Heard. I always bake when I feel down. I know you like cake.

Maybe some red velvet is in order...

Chuck said...

Sorry to hear you're down. Take care and know that you have people that care about you that you don't even know. (like me!!)

I've heard winning the lottery is awesome for depression. Unfortunatly, I can't speak from experience.....

Dora said...

I just wanted to let you know that I love reading your posts, and I am so sorry you are going through a hard time right now! Please hang in there, Big Hug!

gamerbri said...

Hey M you will be alright. Things always catch up with us and we come out the other end a better person. You will be alright just drink more and get the tears out and you will be great.

Deanna said...

Awww, I read your blog because you make me laugh, but now I has a sad! It might not seem like it now, but things will get better. Keep your chin up funny girl.

Anonymous said...

iv been reading your blog since college humor, I didn;t realize you were sad then,at least when you are sad you are funny, when i am sad i am just depressing. I think everything will go your way sooner then you think.
- Todd n